Monday, September 12, 2011

Motherhood Monday: The Missing Puzzle Piece

All my life I have longed to be good at something. To find that one thing that was uniquely me. I tried it all: drawing, painting, photography, writing, yoga, running, singing, activism, meditation, name it I tried it. But I never excelled at anything, I was always just ok, or good. The whole time I was looking for my hidden talents I was also looking for the missing puzzle piece. I'd wake up most mornings and honestly my first thought of the day was "is this all there is?" I felt that there had to be something else, something more, but I had no idea what! My search for this often made me very depressed, because I always came up empty. It was like no matter what I tried or did it was never enough. Something always felt wrong. And now I know what it was...

I was meant to do this.

I was meant to be a mother.

I no longer wake up in the morning wondering if "this is all there is". I gave up searching for the missing puzzle piece. I found it the minute Claire was put on my chest after her birth, as I lay in recovery chanting Claire's name over and over in my head as a mantra until I could finally be with her.

She completes me.

She is my missing puzzle piece.


  1. I totally feel you on this. Even if I fail at everything else, I excel at being a mother. It's what I was meant to do and to a lot of people that isn't good enough as if I should be ashamed but you know what, I think being a mother and parent is one of the most spectacular things we can be in this world. It's not for everyone but for those who it is for it's magical. <3

  2. It is magical isnt it? Hard freaking work! But pure magic!

  3. Love this post, it's so sweet! Amazing what these beautiful babies do to us...

  4. awe that is so beautiful Kami! so happy to hear you feel so full of love and completeness.