|I originally saw this image here but this is the actual artist|
Well kittens today is the big day, I am heading off to the hospital to have my baby! I am all kinds of nervous and excited all jumbled into one....it's frankly amazing that a person can even feel so many emotions at the same time: grief that I wont birth vaginally, fear at being cut open, excitement at meeting my child, and gratitude that I live in a country that can help me deliver my baby safe and sound. It is an emotionally exhausting combination of feelings, and I feel that it will take me some time, patience, and lots of self love to get over my disappointment at not being able to birth naturally. So I am being gentle with myself today, practicing lots of self love, and thanking my body for doing such a good job of creating and nurturing this precious bundle of joy that I carry inside of me. The creative powers of nature are truly amazing! Being pregnant was an awe inspiring, life changing, cataclysmic event in my life. I am so glad I got to experience it, and will miss the bug and I's private little kick moments. But soon I get to kiss those tiny lil feet that have been tap dancing on my bladder for 37 weeks. Thank you so much for all of the love, advise, and support you have offered me over these past 8.5 months. I am deeply moved by the love you all have shown, and by the outpouring of help I received from the blogging community to help maintain my blog while I recover. THANK YOU
Wish us luck....Ryan and I are setting out on our biggest adventure yet!