This is the last Motherhood Monday post I will write while pregnant....WILD! Tomorrow I go in for my scheduled (insert sad face here) c-section and although I am still devastated that I will not be able to birth naturally I am over the initial shock and am just excited to meet my child! Tomorrow morning the Bug will be out of my tummy and in my arms! All warm, snuggly and soft....I WILL BE A MOTHER! Wow. Still after 37 weeks this takes me by surprise, me! A mother? Really? You mean I get to take this fragile, tender, small little human being home with me???! But I imagine everyone feels like this with their first child, I know Ryan feels the same way I do. It's a good kind of shock, a good kind of wow. The kind of wow that makes life beautiful. And my life is set to become that much more beautiful by this time tomorrow! Once baby and I have had some time to relax and get to know each other I promise to post a quick update and a photo. Will the bug be a girl or a boy? Weeeeeeeeeeeeee! Tomorrow we will know!
As far as how I am physically feeling at 37 weeks I feel like I am a ten tonne sausage shoved into a teeny tiny sock. I AM JAMMED FULL OF BABY! This kid is still moving and squirming lots, making my ribs and mid back constantly ache. But that is ok, every movement the bug does makes the bleeding I have been having seem much less scary. It has slowed as of yesterday and I am very grateful. Sleeping has been difficult though, I get really scared at night that I am going to "bleed out" like the OB feared and that I wont make it to the hospital in time for me or the bug. Every tiny twinge, cramp, and ache I feel in my uterus sets panic in....not good for sleep, and not good for baby. So I try to relax and take deep breathes, but all in all it has been making for some really restless nights! Ryan is home now though, and that makes everything SO MUCH BETTER! Today is the last day of just "Ryan and I" its a pretty crazy thought! Tomorrow our entire lives are set to change!! I will keep you all posted and as always....peace, love and pickles my dears!
I have some FABULOUS guest bloggers lined up for you all while I am recovering from the birth, I hope you will all stop by and give them lots of love and comments! I am so very grateful for their help!!!!