I don't ever want to be anything but 100% honest on here, for you my readers but also for myself. I write this blog for posterity sake, I don't journal, I blog. I don't want to look back on a bunch of fluffy posts, about bullshit things. I want to look back on what this first year of motherhood truly was like. And kittens, its hard. I am not going to lie. I love it, Claire is happy and thriving, but it is HARD. I simply can't keep up. There are other mommy bloggers out there who can juggle the demands of a baby and still blog, even do fashion posts of their cute outfits. I try to keep up, but to be honest it just makes me sad. Things have been rough for me lately, mood wise. I am not comfortable going into much more detail then that, but lets just say I have been advised by my Doctor, friends and family to take a step back. Only do what needs to be done, and do little things with great joy. BABY STEPS. So once again, I am taking a break from regular posting on this blog. The last one I did in August should have been a warning sign to me, a sign that maybe I am not cut out for this mommy blogger thing. BUT I love it, and I have worked SO HARD to get this blog to where it is now...Id hate to give up and walk away. So I won't. But I am going to distance myself for a while, post a bit less often and only when it makes me truly happy to do so. Life is simply to short to spend so much time in front of my laptop screen, worrying about things like stats and comments. That isn't why I started blogging. Some of you may move on, some of you may stay...I hope many of you do stay. I value each and every little connection I have made through this here site. Please, just be patient with me as I adjust to this new life of mine. As I said I will be around, just not quite as often.