Friday, May 13, 2011
Change in Birthing Plans...
People keep telling me to just be excited because my bug will be here and in my arms all the sooner. Although yes that is true, it is also before the bug is due so I am concerned for their health and it is not the way I wanted it to happen! I feel like a part of me is in mourning, saying good by to a dream I don't get to fulfill. It is heartbreaking for me that I wont be able to birth naturally, but also amazing to know that the technology exists that can save me and the bugs life. It is a confusing place to be in and I don't think I am quite ready to blog about it much more then that.
For now I know that the excitement part will kick in once Daddy is home with me. Until then I am just going to process my emotions and watch a lot of really trashy mind numbing movies.
Peace, love, and pickles!
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